16 and 2 quarters

So we're in the 2nd quarter of 2016. I have been sufficiently lazy to fill my quota this year (please don't judge my quota of laziness)... Truth be told, I just finally have enough co-workers again to slip some blogging time into my busy schedule. Things are going well with yours truly, and I scooped up my scattered brain enough to reach out in my long-distance relationship. I find it hard to stay in contact with people far away, just ask my dad and sister! And please let them know that I'm thinking about them. So I Emailed Jono, off on mission for his church, and he appears to be very busy indeed. He hasn't replied, which is likely because he's always doing stuff (he said so in his weekly updates), but as long as he's noticed that I'm thinking about him then I am glad :)

Speaking of Jono, he gets back in only 9 months! 2 years go by slowly if you keep looking at the time. Like a boiling pot. Jono, you are my boiling pot! And when you get home and read this, you will remember how crazy your friends are. If you forget then we might feel emotionally hurt and we will have our revenge!!!

So THAT'S how it works!

I'm just joking everybody :P I'm not psycho, just a little on the crazy-fun side but not too-crazy over-the-top. Like scary crazy! I'm not scary crazy. One of my co-workers would likely disagree, but that's only because he doesn't share my sense of humour and he thinks I may be a mass-murdering psychopath - just because I smile broadly for no reason sometimes.

Setting unrealistic standards

I realised that I'm doing that for myself. Every time that I posted a well made and thought provoking blog post then I would get great feedback... I have come to realise that the positive feedback makes me only want to use my time posting thought provoking and intellectually challenging content, otherwise it's a waste of time. Now the thing about those great posts is that they come naturally and NOT when I'm wracking my brain about making new original greatness.

Look at that thing!

Back to my roots!

What is my Blog called? "Who I am". I didn't call my blog "Mr Inflated ego" or "What I want people to see me as", so I need to write about ME and MY needs. Otherwise I won't write anything from the guilt of my unrealistic standards. Which led me to think that people really do set unrealistic standards in their own lives and for people around them, but I won't go into detail for that topic now...

Yours in writing
Ben'jammin

In the greater scheme of things

This is YOU! The universe is YOU!

Do you ever feel small in the vastness of the universe? Or like a paper bag? But what is the universe? By definition according to Wikipedia: "The Universe is all of time and space and its contents. The Universe includes planets, stars, galaxies, the contents of intergalactic space, the smallest subatomic particles, and all matter and energy." Meaning that the universe is conscious, has gained intelligence, and is reading this Blog of mine. In fact, this Blog IS the universe! Just as YOU are the universe!

So what does that mean to us earthlings? We are all a little piece of the universe! A tiny eency weency minuscule piece of the seemingly endless expanse of space. It's hard to feel important in such a large area, heck- it's hard to feel important in your own neighbourhood and for some, even in their own family! So what's the use of worrying? It never was worthwhile... So! Pack up your troubles in your old kit-bag and smile, Smile, SMILE!

I'm sick of worrying about things I can't control. Just gives you grief and stresses you out for nothing! I can't control how other people think or feel either, which can get frustrating... Why won't they stop being so stubborn about their individuality and just see my point of view? And I'm certainly not gonna dwell on being insulted by another human being. Whether you're drunk or angry or just an idiot, if I don't like your opinion then I have no reason to accept it! So insult me to your heart's content if it makes your little ego feel better, call me ugly or retarded, but as is always the case - I'm the rubber, you're the glue! What ever you say bounces off me and sticks to you :P

Ooh, sticky situation...

Right! That original topic...

So what importance does your existence have in the universe? It's probably not very far-reaching since I referred to such a large scale, but you can make it meaningful! What you need to worry about most in this life is your footprint left on the people around you while you're here. You CAN ignore them and live your life real lonely-like, but then I don't know what that life will be worth. Filling other people with joy lifts my spirit more than any act of self satisfaction ever will! If you don't enjoy making others happy (at the very least, your immediate family or a loved one of some sort) then this doesn't apply to you... Good luck finding happiness out in this nasty world, I surely know that I can't do it alone. I need people. I thrive on positive reinforcement in my day-to-day living! I would shrivel up and my reason for living would be cast to the wind if I had to be alone in this life, as fleeting as my mortal human body allows.

Stay frosty (whatever that means)
Yours in writing
Benjamin